Shadow's Notebook
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Last published Wed, May 27, 2015
She writes when she's happy, she writes when she's sad. She writes no matter kind of day she might have had. Take a look inside Shadow's notebook. She sits all alone at school everyday. Even though she rarely talks, find out what she has to say. (This will be written as if you were actually reading this like the progression of her notebook.)
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I'm an 18 year old boy with Cerebral Palsy, depression and anxiety. I'm a British Hipster Punk Fuck who has dreams of happiness and independence. Living with my difficulties can be saddening and difficult so to cope I draw (follow my Instagram: alex_likes_airguns) and write poems apparently! The interest in writing is fairly new and I have no idea how to really write enjoyable things. I'm an illustrator by trade so this whole writing stuff is new to me, apologies for bad grammar. This notwithstanding I needed somewhere to store my poems so this book and my account now exists I guess! Enjoy!
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