Soul Secrets

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Fate decides my future, but I decide the present.
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"Why are you so cold Carson?" He whispered, his gaze intense but I dared not look into those eyes of his. Only God knows what I'd do if I did.

He calmed my chaos, but I was bad for him.

"Life, Xavier. Life makes you cold." I replied with a frown, turning my head to other direction but his hands cupped my face and demanding that I looked at his face- into his pretty eyes.

I always seemed to get lost in them, so pretty.

"Don't let it then, be strong while feeling every other emotion. Have someone who'll hold you when it gets hard." He said, caressing my face softly with the pad of his thumb. My eyes pricked with tears, but I refused to shed them. Not in front of him.

"I-I have no one, Xavier." I whispered, my emotions catching up to me at last.

"Let me be your person." He smiled softly, tucking the hair behind my ear.

Could he be my person? I want to trust him, with everything in me but my heart can only take so much until it breaks. My demons are too much, I hold too many burdens. I can't do this to him, not him.

"I can't."

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