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Complete, First published Nov 26, 2014
Mature
BOOK ONE Discovering your sexuality in high-school is one of the most challenging things a teenage boy can face. Being closet gay for months, finally coming out, being greeted with a punch in the face and being shunned is even worse. For Julian Douglas, life can't get anymore difficult especially in the face of high school, a restrictive religious mother, and a gorgeous man with a huge following who jumped into his life at the most inopportune time. ::: He felt like serenity. He made me feel safe and I couldn't help but slow my heartbeat down to match his and at once, I felt the tempo of his heart thumping against my back, his breaths on my neck, goosebumps raising. I could feel it when his body finally went slack, when he'd fallen asleep and soft snores emitted. And I thought I was getting better at this breaking down thing... I honestly did but when I was alone, I seemed to fall apart. Endless serenades of how worthless I'd been and how destructive I was; I was a disappointment to literally everyone and I hated it. My breathing became shallow as I cried for the second time that day, finally feeling content being immersed in guilt. A shudder wracked through my body, tears escaping and Paul pulled me closer as he woke silently. Mumbling soft nothings against my skin and kissing it to slow my breathing, he tried to lull me to sleep, "It's okay, you're okay." Refusing to speak -my voice failing me- his arm came up to wrap around my shoulder and I held him there, placing a small kiss to his tattooed skin in a broken sign of gratitude, I must've run out of tears. And I felt at ease.All Rights Reserved
Table of contents
- zero:: when the intro happens.Sat, Jan 17, 2015
- one:: when the bomb drops.Sun, Jan 18, 2015
- two:: when you hug a stranger.Wed, Jan 28, 2015
- three:: when you confront your love.Thu, Feb 5, 2015
- four:: when you enter his residance.Thu, Feb 19, 2015
- five:: when you get 'the talk.'Thu, Mar 5, 2015
- six:: when you get shunned.Sat, Mar 14, 2015
- seven:: when you befriend the outcasts.Wed, Apr 1, 2015
- eight:: when you discover his sexuality.Sat, Apr 25, 2015
- nine:: when your life is a teen movie.Sat, May 9, 2015
- ten:: when you're too gay to function.Sat, May 23, 2015
- eleven:: when your "bully" brings his buddies.Mon, Jun 1, 2015
- twelve:: when you mend your broken strings.Tue, Jun 16, 2015
- thirteen:: when you lose your breath.Mon, Jun 29, 2015
- fourteen:: when you find a new home.Sat, Jul 11, 2015
- fifteen:: when nothing is the same.Sat, Jul 25, 2015
- sixteen:: when you get daring.Tue, Aug 4, 2015
- seventeen:: when you get checked.Mon, Aug 17, 2015
- eighteen:: when your lips are put to work.Mon, Sep 7, 2015
- nineteen:: when you just can't help yourself.Sun, Sep 13, 2015
- twenty:: when you keep secrets.Sun, Oct 18, 2015
- twenty-one:: when you fail to keep the peace.Thu, Nov 12, 2015
- twenty-two:: when you understand conflict resolutionSun, Nov 29, 2015
- twenty-three:: when you're not exactly John Bender.Wed, Dec 16, 2015
- twenty-four:: when you have your first panic attack.Fri, Dec 25, 2015
- twenty-five:: when he comforts you.Mon, Dec 28, 2015
- twenty-six:: when you attempt to move on.Wed, Dec 30, 2015
- twenty-seven:: when you fail to make it public.Wed, Jan 6, 2016
- twenty-eight:: when you're just tired.Fri, Jan 15, 2016
- twenty-nine:: when you learn how to bond.Sun, Jan 31, 2016
- thirty:: when you confuse yourself.Wed, Feb 10, 2016
- thirty-one:: when he cheers you on.Wed, Feb 24, 2016
- thirty-two:: when he meets the family.Wed, Dec 11, 2019
- thirty-three:: when you go on your second date.Mon, Apr 11, 2016
- thirty-four:: when cheating is prohibited.Mon, Apr 18, 2016
- thirty-five:: when he's not like the others.Sat, May 14, 2016
- thirty-six:: when old wounds are reopened.Mon, Jun 6, 2016
- thirty-seven:: when the truth comes out.Thu, Jun 16, 2016
- thirty-eight:: when you admit there's a problem.Sun, Jul 24, 2016
- thirty-nine:: when you find a solution.Mon, Jul 25, 2016
- forty:: when it's simply skin on skin.Thu, Aug 18, 2016
- forty-one:: when you find stars in his eyes.Tue, Oct 18, 2016
- forty-two:: when you hold your future in your hands.Thu, Nov 24, 2016
- forty-three:: when you resemble an overly-emotional Clark Kent.Fri, Dec 30, 2016
- forty-four:: when you go on an emotional rollercoaster.Mon, Jan 23, 2017
- forty-five:: when he's finally frightened.Mon, Apr 17, 2017
- forty-six:: when you give him space.Mon, May 15, 2017
- forty-seven:: when no love is lost.Thu, Jun 8, 2017
- forty-eight:: when you take a big step.Thu, Aug 17, 2017
- forty-nine:: when he takes a bigger step.Wed, Nov 8, 2017
- fifty:: when he's the one in need of saving.Mon, Jan 1, 2018
- fifty-one:: when one end is a new beginning.Sun, Feb 18, 2018
- fifty-two:: when sometimes you need self-closure.Wed, Apr 4, 2018
- fifty-three:: when one door closed is another one opened.Mon, May 14, 2018
- fifty-four:: when pauly met jules.Mon, Jun 25, 2018
- epilouge:: when the future makes long-distance calls.Mon, Aug 27, 2018
- sequel:: postedWed, Jun 12, 2019
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