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I Don't Want To Go Back

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Time 9h 38m

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Synopsis 

Bella Natalia Sybal Macaraeg a Medical Technologist student from UST; who love reading books. In books she finds peace and home. But maybe, because of books she also became a hopeless romantic. For her, love and happy ending aren't for everyone- not even for her. She doesn't really know what's the true essence of love. She was all alone ever since she was a kid. She never find of someone she can be with; a friend, a boyfriend or even a father. She was contented with a responsible Mom; a busy mother that does everything to give what Sy needs. Sy, used to hear her Mom's forces. Forces her to have a boyfriend. A lifetime partner. But Sy, never listened to her persistent Mom. And just set her goal to never fall in love.  

On the other hand.. 

Hedrick Kylo Heredia, a Law student from Ateneo; who just wanted to obey what his parents wanted for him. Everyone thinks he has a happy and perfect family; truth to be told, he really has. An amazing Mom and siblings. But his Dad? Kylo hates his Dad. His Dad controls his life like Kylo is his pet. He can't say no, because he didn't know how. Not until when he met a woman that taught him to decide for his own life, and to say no every time he feels controlled. 

The woman who taught him how beautiful life is. To enjoy life. That taught him how to.. love. 

But what if one day was the worse day for the both of them. That one day, they need to let each other go to do the right thing? That there's no other way to do the right thing than letting go of each other. 


Would they choose to stay for love or choose to let go and part ways for the better? Would they be able to find the true love, and be able to have their happy endings? With or without each other?

Could pain really be the urge to say you don't want to go back? And could you really forget a person you once loved? 


Then if yes, why and how? 




Started: October 26, 2021
Ended: --All Rights Reserved

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