The journal of a lost girl

Haily page1 Nov.14.2014
help is all i need I've lived day after day the same way blade after slit after tear. Lets not even start with how much sleep I've gotten the pain won't go i don't like it. He did it,if it wasn't for him i would have been fine!The pain it feels like I'm drowning,he's drowning me.I should know how to deal with things by now i should be over what happened but i can't how can you live with knowing that the man who raised you maybe not the way any kid should be raised but that man who you thought was your dad turned out not being your dad. That man hit me every day it wasn't that i was a bad kid i was 3 when it started, he abused you and your mom never did anything to stop it, how? Why should you live I grew up to find out he wasn't my dad! I hate myself how did i not know?!? A blade won't help me scars won't heel this pain anymore the scars i have, they just became memories of him now...of what he did of what he put me through. Soon enough they'll become who i am.