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i am (not) real

Hesitant_Sorrows

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Reads 34
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Hesitant_Sorrows

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I died and woke up surrounded by white, still able to think, unable to forget.

Just something I wrote during an English lesson. /TRIGGER WARNING/ Brief hints at suicide and (very small) mentions of self harm, so please read with caution. In first person.

Cover edited by me, a screenshot of a poem called 'we used to talk on the phone every single day (noonereallyknowshowitgoes)', which I think is by Pete Wentz, but I can't be sure. The title is also from this poem.All Rights Reserved

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I used to think there'd be no living without you. Then, you walked away. Like it was the easiest thing in the world. We finally stopped making sense to you. So, you left. Why wouldn't you. It didn't matter that it still made sense to me. That I still held on to all those what ifs and unanswered questions of us. Still hoped for things to work out somehow. Still needed things to work out. Needed it like food and water. This story might not make much sense to you, reader. It was written for him. And in many ways for myself. But I am grateful for your desire to explore our life's tale non the less. It was quite something. I hope you'll get something out of it.