...My Life...
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Last published Fri, Nov 28, 2014
It all started as my dad passed away in a car crash... 4 year ago, nothing was the same as he went away in my life, It all got depressing... I started hanging around with the wrong people, then I changed myself, I wasn't a daddy's girl anymore... And then I had a big argument with my mum, I got kicked out and had no where else to go... I cried myself to sleep every night thinking I want to end my life, I had enough at this point, my life felt it was sinking into the ground, I felt faint... I picked up a knife and thought, 'shall I? Or shall I not?" I was full of scars and now I can't show my arms, I feel like not the real me, it felt like a massive secret inside of me that I hadn't told anyone for years, i had bad dreams for a while and was wishing I never woke up in the morning after a really bad dream. I couldn't explain the pain I was in and I still can't... I was having fights with my mum... She got a new partner and it don't feel the same, it's not my real dad, it's not
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so, I've been struggling for a long time now, and I never told anyone about it. I've never opened up. but I met someone who understands how I feel, and I'm beginning to feel again. I don't know how to do it, but I finally feel I can fight. I've been so exhausted. I'm not better, I'm not sure if i ever will be, but I'm not numb, not entirely. I can't say how I'm feeling, or what i am going to write, but if you want it, it's here. This is for you. For everyone who was made to be the villain by those meant to be by their sides. For everyone with a sensitive heart made to grow strong much too quickly. For everyone who struggles to get out of bed in the morning. For everyone who never could find the words to say why. For everyone who struggles to feel and for everyone who feels too much. For everyone who had to pick themselves back up. For everyone who had to parent themselves. For everyone fighting an invisible battle. For everyone who has been underestimated. For everyone who has to flee to other worlds to cope. For everyone who found other means to silence their voices. For everyone who was silenced. For everyone who was over powered. For everyone who was made to be less. For everyone who had to watch someone else suffer and stay silent. For everyone asking themselves, why? Why would you do this? What did I do? Why is this happening to me? It was never your fault.
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