Intoxicated
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How do I feel?
I feel alone. I can't let people in, I'll only get hurt. I feel scared. Not only of people and places, but of myself too. What if I lose control again? I feel guilty. It's all my fault I'm like this, I just can't seem to change myself.
But how is it that I feel all of those feelings, and still feel nothing?
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