i just don't care
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MatureOngoing8m
Last published Tue, Jul 13, 2021
recently i just wanted to read a book about a strong woman who didn't give a fuck about anyone, i couldn't find one so i decided to write it.
Hope is a 17 year old girl who got past a lot of things for her young age, her dad died while she was young from an overdose so she just lives with her mom who also is addicted to a lot of things and brings a new man every night.
They moved a lot so she didn't really had the chance to meet real friends but this time, it seems like they're staying here. The thing is that she just doesn't care anymore.
Will she find true friends, maybe she will find love? There's only one way to find out..
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