"You've gotta go now, come on, please." she was begging now, the frantic edge to her voice undeniable. Even without Robyn's wolf hearing, the drumming of boots outside getting closer and closer was impossible to ignore.
Despite her heart being against it, she heaved open the window, logic telling her the truth, that letting go was the only way to ensure her safety, but why did letting go have to be so painful? Thumping louder and louder in her chest, like the boots on the stairs, her heart proved this, as it ached with longing, for her and Robyn to remain together.
"You can do a wolf thing and land safely, right?" she asked, already knowing the answer but wanting to savour every word with Robyn as if it was her last, and the bitter reality was that it truly could be.
"Yeah, I'll be fine." Robyn replied quietly, panting, adrenaline breaking down the emotionless expression she always tried to maintain and revealing how vulnerable she really was in that moment.
Turning towards the window, she prepared to take the leap; a leap towards freedom and safety, but also a leap of loss, the loss of her alpha.
"I don't want to leave you!" she cried, whirling around from the window like it burned her, eyes glimmering with tears that threatened to fall. "You are my alpha now," she paused, pure anguish dripping from her words as she stared into Katrina's eyes, cool blue to contrast and watery to match Robyn's.
Katrina saw something snap within Robyn, something falling away from her expression, and finally she was seeing her, really seeing her, and she knew, as the words began flowing, that Robyn was only telling the truth.
"If you wanted me to, I would stay." she said loudly. Katrina wanted to protest, but could only shake her head in disbelief. "I would lose my wolf for you!"
The air was heavy with tension and intent. Words spun in her head, unable to fit together to form sentences, and something almost tangible sparked in the air between them, they just didn't know what.
Her words still linger in my head
My mind wanders off to thinking about her
Her natural thick chocolate curls.
Her Carmel skin. Her beautiful melanin.
Her mocha eyes that shines with happiness and love.
Love;I love her.
"No your not! The real Cole wouldn't abandon me randomly one day! --The real Cole wouldn't bully me every single minute of my life until my breaking point! --The real Cole wouldn't go out drinking every night and sleep with a new girl every week!--The real Cole would do anything to protect me; Not go ditch me like I was gum under your $175 Guicci Flip Flops! --The real Cole would love me until my dying moment. And I actually thought I loved you?!" I remember her screaming at me
She loved me. Well not anymore.
Tears streamed down her angelic face like a wild river. Her brown eyes were blood shot for all the crying. Even when she was crying, she still looked beautiful to me.
I wanted to take away all the pain and sadnesses she had. I want to grab her and hug her close to me; having her all to myself forever.
I always imagined falling in more love with her, getting married, taking care of the Pack, having pups, growing old, and dying together.
A loud honk from the car behind me woke me up from my day dream; I didn't realize that the red light turned green. I run my hands through my hair and turned the music up higher. Bryson tiller's song "Don't" filled the car.
She's right
My hands tighten on the leather steering wheel turning my knuckles white.
My foot pressed on the gas, making the car go faster
90
Tears started to fill my eyes blurring my vision
I don't need her
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I don't need her
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Tears fall fast down my face
99
I don't need her
Trees and signs quickly past by me as I speed down the empty road
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Then my car slams right into a large oak tree
"I need her" I whisper as my body goes numb.
Even though I'm seconds from dying. I still think about her.
Alexis Anderson.
BWWM•Complete•Werewolf