The arc in the illusion

The day wasn't quite near than I hoped.
I waited everyday just to get a glimpse of the reality I've been chasing all along.
And there it was. Shiny, tall and full of dust somehow. my time hadn't come yet but sth about the feeling, the temptation made me move forward. I didn't want it to happen as a self deed, they thought of them as cowards, even though everybody had to do it some day. I don't know why some people just don't like it, maybe it's the orbituary they're afraid of. But I've been here for as long as I want and it's finally time for me to leap ahead. I know I'm an orphan, maybe that was the reason I couldn't hold on to the things I've had been given, it wasn't valuable because I never understood what a relationship did for a person except create infatuation and unnecessary spectacle. But they still do it even when they know it was only going held them back. There are many families here too but they are not as attached to one another, people are chosen at random and sometimes by they're own will. I hope I get chosen next week in the MORPH DAY. But the problem is they don't let people below 18 be the one to inaugurate the program. There aren't many old people left here but some say that there is an island full of big and old people. The thing is after you go through the door you go back about 10 years of you life. You can never die unless you want to.

hey, idk how this story is going to progress but I hope it won't be a total disaster. I am writing because I'm bored and thinking too much about alternate realities and simulated world. If you like it then, thank you very much. I'm honoured to have helped you fuel your belief in alternate reality.