This Is Me Trying
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𝅘𝅥𝅮"ᴀɴᴅ ᴍʏ ᴡᴏʀᴅs sʜᴏᴏᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴋɪʟʟ ᴡʜᴇɴ ɪ'ᴍ ᴍᴀᴅ, ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴀ ʟᴏᴛ ᴏғ ʀᴇɢʀᴇᴛs ᴀʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛʜᴀᴛ"𝅘𝅥𝅮
𝅘𝅥𝅮"ɪs ɪᴛ ɪɴsᴇɴsɪᴛɪᴠᴇ ғᴏʀ ᴍᴇ ᴛᴏ sᴀʏ 'ɢᴇᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ sʜɪᴛ ᴛᴏɢᴇᴛʜᴇʀ sᴏ ɪ ᴄᴀɴ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ?' ɪs ɪᴛ ʀᴇᴀʟʟʏ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀɴxɪᴇᴛʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ sᴛᴏᴘs ʏᴏᴜ ғʀᴏᴍ ɢɪᴠɪɴɢ ᴍᴇ ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴛʜɪɴɢ? ᴏʀ ᴅᴏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴊᴜsᴛ ɴᴏᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ?"𝅘𝅥𝅮
-TS
✿Title credits to her as well✿
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Alex calms down Mona when she's mad. He listens to her jagged, repeated sentences when she's anxious. He picks her up and dusts her off when she seems incapable to.
Mona loves him, she knows she does. She has let herself be vulnerable with him far too much to actually doubt that. But what about all those times when she yells at him only because she knows that she can't ever be the perfect girlfriend he deserves?
A good-natured advice, a discussion that was supposed to be healthy. And it all turns into a big nightmare when Mona can't control the things that come out of her mouth, so much so that she's bordering on being biphobic towards Alex.
So now it's Alex's dilemma. What should he choose? The guilt of breaking up with a woman he loves who's clearly suffering? Or just . . . self preservation?
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