SILENCE IS HOLDING US

Would I'll be ever be able to know him is he really a quiet person if not then does his silence is holding any deeper meaning
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Ugh its been ages since knowing him or since knowing his existence ... damn it man I know means I don't know but the feeling is true that it isn't one- sided . no please ... just tell me who you are or if not possible for you then just don't look at me with those eyes ... those eyes why are they filled with that much of love why are those eyes that much sparking when he's watching me please don't do that for that reason its been 8 years and I'm still unable to make eye contact if you want to do this , then talk to me , who are u tell me . . . and if you cant then please don't kill me like this .