Dear myself I guess?
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Last published Mon, Oct 17, 2022
Collin Smith a young boy with a big secret that could change his whole life so he writes a journal. He keeps to himself, but one day his step dad moves in with them with his daughter and stuff goes downhill from there. He writes all of his thoughts in his journal, even about when a new boy comes to his school and changes his life for the better. Something else to know about Collin is that he's gay and he's not ashamed of it.
The new boy's name is Derek Ryder, he's just your average person who gets on the football team and becomes popular fast. He is openly gay just like Collin. He lives alone and nobody knows why or where his parents are, but secrets will come out and it will change everyone's lives.
*TW*
- a past suicide attempt
- self harm
- mentions of a past eating disorder
- mental/emotional/verbal abuse
- non accepting parents
- depression
- anxiety
- homophobia
- internalized homophobia
- mentions of smoking (THC and nicotine)
Don't read if any of that triggers you or skip those parts, because I will make sure you know when anything his going to happen like that.
This is a book about two boys who have a lot of struggles in life but work together to get through it. So if you don't like gay romance don't read this book.
Also I'm not exactly perfect or even good at writing, but this is just something I've been thinking about doing so I decided to just write this and go with it. If you like it you like it if you don't well okay I don't mind.
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