The dazzling Christmas

Hi ! My name is Bethany Mota , you can call me Bethers , my boyfriends name is Connor and my moms name is Tammy , I have a big family and December is right around the corner , and I'm still waiting for a miracle to get rid of leukaemia.. It's the worst honestly and I need help with it , also Connor has cancer , except he has it worse .. Where's the Christmas miracle in my life ?