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Ongoing, First published Jul 07, 2021
Mature
A warning it will contain: sexual content, drugs, drinking, sex, anxiety, depression, and self-harm 


Nova Ren. Was verbally abused by her brother for the first half of her life struggled with eating anxiety and her body at the age of 13. Coping with those with sex drugs and alcohol l, she only wanted to be loved by someone who could love her as much as she loved them. 

Chase Dean. The boy whose own father left and whose mother hated because of it. But he covered his past by putting up the front of a fuck boy or player. He wanted to share love, he wanted to receive love but always sidestepped it in order to protect the little bit of Unshattered heart that was left. 


They were both only in their second years of college both alone but surrounded by people. They wanted to run to each other but their paths are not straight lines and easy trails. They will start to believe that maybe loving themselves and others is possible. 

strangers x friends x more x lovers....... 

Started: July 7, 2021 

Ended:

Hope you enjoy my first book, sorry for any spelling mistakes or other errors. I will leave warnings before a possible trigger and also author notes at the end of most chapters. Also little disclaimer it is all based on the story in my head, and is an original, however, NONE of the photos used are mine unless they specifically say so! Thank you, enjoy reading my word vomit! 

And no hate will be tolerated. 
-T
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