eccedentesiast
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Eccedentesiast Latin (n.)
Someone who hides pain behind a smile
Poems written on the days that I tried to convince everyone I was fine or when I couldn't express my feelings.
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Trigger warning ⚠️: ED, self harm, dark thoughts...
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