The Moments I Recall
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DISTANTDREAMER21
Complete, First published Jul 15, 2021
Mature
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He looks out beyond the edge and I can't seem to pull my eyes away from him. He smiles and speaks, but I can't hear anything he says. Even so, the buzzing seems to grow quieter and quieter till it's just silence all around myself and him. I watch his mouth move as inaudible words flow from it into the air, and his hands open as he gestures while he speaks. I watch as he looks turns to look at me to be sure I am following along, and then his eyes just wait on me and his mouth stops moving. I watch him mouth my name and tilt his head to read me.  There's nothing I can tell him. Nothing that wont change things, but if I keep this going things will change.

"Xylia," He mouths again.
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Xylia doesn't remember any of it, she lived through it all and yet she can't remember. She must watch herself relive every choice and every mistake she had the first time to find herself again. It is the only way to save him from herself. All she  knows is: 
This is a past life among hundreds of billions. 
Summer Camp changed everything. 
Her friends are dying and she doesn't remember how to save them.
 All that you see is her fault.
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 *:･。PART ONE - CAMP ORIGINS ★CH1-8★ 
 *:･。PART TWO - BLACKBURROW HIGH ★CH9-19★ 
 *:･。PART THREE - THE HOWS OF US ALL ★CH20-26★ 
*:･LAST PAGE ★CHARACTER AESTHETICS REVEAL★

COVER CREATED BY ★ @meha-k ★ *:･。

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The Boy She Saw in the Hospital

29 parts Complete Mature

"Death isn't just one thing that happens and is over with. That description fits life more. Death is eternal. I mean that's how I view it. Death brings joy and pain. In my opinion life should be viewed as death is. The end. Death is the beginning. A new life, a fresh new start. Its beauty is unmatched. I imagine it feels like stars bursting, a million smiles and just pure happiness." Cancer. What a pain. Valerie's crippling illness leaves her hospitalised, bored out of her mind, dreaming of how she just wants to be a normal teenager. Although her thoughts are constantly intruded by someone. The boy. She was intrigued by him, he visited everyday at the same time, 2:47pm. She wanted to know his story, why was he here? Is he visiting someone? Her curiosity overflowed her. Anyways, it didn't matter, for her illness was getting better and she could finally get back to school. Sophomore year. Gosh. She could finally be a normal teenager. Then she saw "him" in the school hallways. The boy. Although he seemed different, less warm, more cold. It was like he put up a façade and barricaded his true self. His true self being... the boy she saw in the hospital. 🥇First place in The Star Awards 🥇First place in The Ember Awards #24 in sadromance #15 in cancerpatient finished- 22/09/22

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