My dream/diary

I'm hoping it all was just a dream and I can go on like it never happen... But he is still there...he is in my dreams...my thoughts...my past...I see pieces of him in the people around me...he is still there and I can't change the fact that it happened...why can't it all go away...why can't the feeling disappear and the emotions slip away...it comes to me like bad dreams but that's all I see it as is a dream... I don't cry or scream or yell cause that's all they are to me is dreams nothing but dreams...he is nothing but a dream...a bad dream that won't go away...