What If

Why did I fall in love with my best friend's brother?
What if I didn't?
Why did I fall in love if it wasn't meant to be?
What if it was?

Why was I born?
What if I wasn't?
Why was I so easy to hurt?
What if it was hard?

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You saw me needing you
But why did you leave me hanging?
Who else would I turn to?
I can't stop crying.

So what if I stopped caring?
Would you miss me night after night?
What if I disappeared in your life?
It's harsh right?

I don't know where to start
I think I'm falling apart
I'm sorry if this is what I'm thinking about
But when you say you're there for me, I always have a doubt.

~~ Dianne Espinoza

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All my life I knew her as my annoying sister’s annoying
best friend. Although I grew to love her as a sister over the years, I never
thought of her – a young, innocent girl – to be of girlfriend material. She was like my sister. Nothing less. Nothing more. However, I never imagined how my feelings for her could’ve changed.

But when she admitted her feelings, I didn’t know what to
do. So, I did what I was best at – running away from a problem – so I never
spoke about this again to her and ignored her sad, pleading eyes.

But when her cover came off and she transformed quicker
than I could have ever imagined from a cub to a lion, I knew how wrong I had been, so the past was forgotten and I saw a new woman. And with a new woman, came new problems.

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