Just A Bit Longer

"What's my reason supposed to be?" She asked, as though Ashe would have the answers she needed, "It was supposed to be be marriage, but I don't want to listen to my father. And then it was fighting in the war, but now that's over and- Where do I go now?"
Ashe gave her a different smile - this one had pity (she was familiar with pity) - and shook his head, "No one can really tell you what it is, Bernadetta! It's something I think you have to find on your own... But until you find something, we can say that writing to me can be your something!"
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Post war in the Golden Deer class, Bernadetta is trapped in her room all over again, just like she was in school. But now, it's far, far worse. Bernadetta von Varley isn't fully convinced she'll survive this time.
But for now, she can focus on her writing assignment from Ashe Duran. That should be simple enough.

This fic is a vent. There are triggering topics mentioned, and this fic should be read cautiously.
There will be references to Bernadetta's home life, references and mentions of self harm, references and mentions of suicidal thoughts, references and mentions of derealization, and other content. Please take care of yourself and reach out to a hotline or loved one if you are in danger.
Some characters (cough Hubert and Yuri) may be out of character. I wrote what I needed to read when I was writing this, and that didn't always translate perfectly to the characters that pair best with Bernie. Apologies.