all in my head
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i wrote all if this to try to make sense of the mess that was in my head after high school, and through the first year of college.
it's mostly about how endings lead to beginnings, but also how the way those endings affected the beginnings.
in this anthology, there are some parts that describe how i had to end a friendship that meant so much to me with someone i thought i knew.
after that ending, i tried to start something new with someone. i thought it was going well because it felt right and it felt fantastic, but of course it wrecked me in the end.
there are also some parts that are miscellaneous to the theme of those two people, but the miscellaneous parts are still about stuff i went through during this period of time.
apparently everything i thought i had with the two people previously mentioned was.... all in my head.
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