Unexplained tears

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I don't know whether or not I have depression, but all I know is that sometimes, maybe out of the blue- a wave of emotion swells in my chest and the unexplained breakdown doesn't happen until someone breaks the dam, one word, one statement, one inconvenient and probably hurtful truth could cause the meltdown.  

I don't want it to happen.   I don't know how to stop it.  People tell me simply to stop, or I'm too emotional, or "man up" but they're not very helpful.  

I want someone to help, but I don't want someone to worry.  Or ask questions, or make me explain.  I just want them to hold me until it dies down.  

Some people will simply tell me to Love Myself.  I don't know how to do that either.  

Even if I do feel happy for myself it is short lived.  

Even if I do have a spirit of a fire, and a grin a thousand miles wide.  I can't help but doubt.  

"Ethan?"

(AN: dumb cover stuff by me, picture from viralscape.com)All Rights Reserved

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