Metanoia
Ludicartist
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  • Parts 9
  • Time 44m
Ludicartist
Ongoing, First published Jul 23, 2021
Mature
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~"JULES! SHE DID IT. . . NO NO THIS CANT BE HAPPENING. PLEASE NO." Astrid screams through the phone. 

"Ju" she sniffles, I try to respond but her next words shake me to my core.

"She's gone."

"She's gone" she whispers.

The phone call that ruined everything. 

The phone call that  completely broke everyone.

Frozen that's all that Jules  recalls feeling.~

Jules's life was nowhere near perfect, she has dealt with a lot of things, but this has to be the worst pain she has ever experienced. 

She has just gotten herself out of a toxic relationship with her ex Athena, and she is in the process of moving on from her.

Now she is dealing with a huge and painful loss, that she is not sure that she can ever recover from. 

In comes her brother's next-door neighbor, Grey,  who happens to appear whenever she is having an emotional breakdown. Will Jules ever get over Athena? Will everyone be able to heal from the tragic loss? Read to find out!~


TW: Suicide, Emotional abuse, Mental abuse, Language.
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I've Got It Under Control

38 parts Complete Mature

Jules is forced to live a life in the psychiatric ward after her eating disorder nearly ends up taking her life. Stuck in a life that is contained within four walls, while she fights her battle with an eating disorder and depression, trying to gain control of the demanding voice in her head. Finally having to admit that she can't do it herself and faces vulnerability by doing so. She endures love and heartbreak but only she can save herself. Will Jules recover and finally be free of the voice that has become the burden of her life? ~ I've Got It Under Control That's what she thought. That's what they all think when it first starts. They had control, had, past tense. Now they wish they did. Their bodies are screaming for help but their head is saying otherwise. Hunger coursed through Jules's body, the rumble of her stomach was like a thunderstorm, violent and painful. It scared her, yet it also satisfied her. She started to skip breakfast, and once she realised she didn't need breakfast, she knew she wouldn't need lunch nor dinner. ~TW: Goes into depth about eating disorders, mentions about suicide and self harm. View at your own risk~

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