I'm Not A Liar But...
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Last published Fri, Jul 23, 2021
Having depression and an eating disorder AND borderline personality disorder all wrapped into one big bundle of a mess is exhausting, for sure. But when you feel like you need to lie to please everyone else? To make everyone else happy, so they don't worry, so you're not a burden to them? That goes beyond exhausting. That- that might just kill you.
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