So forbidden it's borderline illegal. It feels illegal in a town like this.
It was just sex. Ridiculous, I hate you sex with the one guy in school I had no business being with.
But the line between love and hate blurs easily. And in a town like this, where secrets are hard to keep, we're playing with fire.
Quitting him doesn't work, especially when he wants me even worse than I want him. Despite how much he hates me, despite that we were destined to hate each other.
The only sure way to keep a secret is to be the only one who knows it. But this secret already involves two.
And it's bound to get out and wreak havoc on my life and my plans for escape.
The only questions that will remain are- was he worth it and will we survive the fall out?
He hurt me. While in the process, I hurt myself as well.
I love her. While in the process, I know I won't live long as well.
I'm told by those closest to me to lower my expectations because I can't even reach them.
I'm told by those closest to me to forget about it to avoid the hurt and pain that will follow, but I can't.
Every time I see him, he has someone new, someone prettier, skinnier, blonde, and overall...better.
Every time I see her, I hate myself even more, with the girl attached to my side to make her jealous, hoping she'd look this way.
I try to hate him, I try every day, I try harder to hate him than to love him.
I try to hate her, I try every day, but my love is stronger than my hate. If it means to stay close to her, I'll hate her.
I'm too ugly.
She is just perfect. In every way. She is perfect.
Started: 1/07/2025