Permanent Delirium
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MatureComplete Wed, Jul 28, 20215m
follow the deep, realistic thoughts of a suicidal teen girl that then lead up to her suicide.
trigger warnings: suicide, suicidal thoughts, self harm, drug abuse, drug use, intrusive thoughts. if you are easily triggered or sensitive to these topics i strongly recommend to NOT read! viewer discretion is advised. Written by Jacquetta Plaza
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