If only I could be a butterfly

If only I could be a butterfly,
Would you love me more than if I was a flower in the garden surrounded by a dozen roses,
And left out in the field to bloom while the sunshine waits for the rain to go down from the clouds and give some water for the flowers to grow into a beautiful plant,
You may have wanted a second chance and I may have wanted you here with me and to never leave that's why we ended up having sex where the flower grows,
and while the making of love was filled with love there is still one thing I can't seem to understand and that is why did you fall for me and then want someone else to fulfill your needs and not trust that you have me and that is all you need,
It may have been a fling and no strings attached but that does not excuse how you made me feel like I can't trust you and that I need to watch your every move and even if we get to a better place with all jumping of each other's bones, we still need to work on the issue at hand and get some space between us until we can figure out where our hearts are at and if we can trust each other after all of that,
You may have been fine with me and you working everything out together but that was before you and me had infidelity and not we are having to answer to the subject of who loves who more me or you?
Can I really fly and be your butterfly and you my BlueBabe forever and in love with you?