" I know it's bad for me. I live with it anyways. I know I'm not worthless. I live like it anyways ". When you realise you're not as important to people as they are to you, things happen. You question 'yourself' , when all along, they had been using you. It had been their fault all along. You live doubtfully, every single day, every single minute, every single second, asking yourself how you could change. Yes, you need to change, but not for them. FOR YOU. Let go of the bullshit you had been taking to be accepted by them - in two words, their toxin.