𝐌𝐞𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐢𝐚
/ˌmɛtəˈnɔɪə/
(Noun)
to turn away from the dark, and face the light.
change in one's way of life resulting from penitence or spiritual conversion; a transformative change of heart.
"I've not been crying! Just, stay away. You don't understand. You never will."
Rhea has always felt misunderstood. Her parents were always distant, yet they assumed they were not, always forcing her to be the ideal daughter, ignoring her pleas for help. Her friends loved her outward image, the perfect girl with everything worked out. However, inwardly, she's a mess that cries herself to sleep each night. Tears stain her journal entries.
She's broken, her edges jagged and sharp.
"Well I do, no matter what you think of me. I care about you. Very much so."
Then one day she meets someone. Someone who drives away her nightmares, who makes her belief in life skyrocket. Someone who sees through her pretences, who wipes away her tears. Someone who believes being broken is not necessarily a bad thing. Little does she know how deep his understanding of her situation goes.
Would he glue her pieces back together, or find beauty in her shattered pieces?
Would they walk off into the sunset together, their backs facing the dark, their faces aglow?
Ella is falling apart trying to live a "perfect" high school life. Then she meets Ren, who can see past her scars. Suddenly perfection isn't her only option.
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Ella Volkov is a gifted music student, but she's depressed and starting to crack under the pressure of high school. Her overbearing father won't even let her choose what instrument she plays. Then she finds herself alone at a party with Ren, her best friend's crush. She'd always thought he was rude, but after that night he's all Ella can think about. Now she's trapped. If Ella dates Ren, it will ruin her friendship with Jenny. But if she stays true to Jenny, she's losing the one person who can see past her scars. It's up to Ella to decide if she will forge her own path, or stay in the "perfect" box designed for her...
Content and/or Trigger Warning: depression, anxiety, self-harm, violence, sexual assault.
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