Trauma Of Pain☹️💔

Ive been living in depression for years and it has me in a stage where i cant even open up to anybody to talk about my issues.

This Depression started after i lost my grandmother due to a heart attack and ik shes completely happy and alive in Heaven. And that year since, ive been down and hurt alot bc my life dont sit well without her🥺💔.

Years later back in middle school, i didnt expect my favorite geography teacher who never troubled me- to pass away so soon😭💔 That really broke me alot bc he was a good person and nice. He was even a pastor that knew so much and i missed hearing him talk🥺. This happened November 2018.

And in that same year and month- ive got the unexpected that happened to me while i was still going to middle school. No one didnt know about my hidden pregnancy except for me and a few frens i was going to school with. And it hurted me alot when after my favorite 8th grade geography teacher passed away, ive lost my 1st child inside of me and it really shocked me😭💔🥺.

Ive lost her at two weeks and it wasnt like even a month when she died. But ill never forget those nights, i had pain always on my right side of where she would kick at. Ive lost my grandma, my teacher i admired and baby in the same month and it left a scar on my heart for a long period of time.

Up until this day, ive been sad alot. Depressed and stressed alot. No one understands me frl bc everyone plays fake at times and the only person i can turn to for guidance and healing and help is the Lord Jesus Christ because he seen my hurt and pain and ik he has my lossed ones up there in heaven. And someday, ill be up there too.🥺