[21+] Growing up in a criminal family, my father has always taught me how to seduce and respect men at a young age. As I grew up, it has become part of my identity and life's purpose. Sex and being an obedient woman has circled my entire life. He said to seduces men to make them fall over heels for me. He said to have sex with men to show my worth. He said to put a big smile to convince my ripeness to men. He said to expresses myself with the sole purpose of the male gaze to make men wants me He said to explore so I did not expired like a rotten fish for men. He said to not love men as it will only bring me pain and suffering. My father has taught me to always get what I want for his sake and never mine. The day my eyes meet him was the day I had ambition to get what I want. And at the age of 22, I didn't ask to fall in love and to be obsessed with him. I didn't ask to feel disgusted when all I want is to be loved by him. I didn't ask to be hated after the dirty deeds he taught me when it leaves me with pain and suffering of my lovers hating me for it. ••• Written in Bahasa (and a little bit of English, probably 10%) A dark romance, mature themes and very sensitive issues: mentions of r*pe, sexual assault, objectification, taboo issues, violence, hard kinks, declaration of belongings, morally gray possessiveness.