Two parallel lines

healing means bonding with your old self, facing your fears, your bottled up feelings. in attempt of moving on her first love of six years, she writes her own story, trying to close that chapter for once and for good.
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The song ended and I saw the invisible sword in my chest. For the first time in my life, I realized I was in love deeply with him, that he was part of me, no I was a part of him, and I couldn't lie to myself anymore. You can't lie to yourself when you literally hear what you feel just this clear, when you can't even hide your tears. I was sobbing on that old couch in our garage; never my heart burnt that much.
I realized that I was really fine with him loving someone else as long as he's happy. I realized that seeing someone crying doesn't make you faint, but I almost did when he broke-up with her for the first time a few months ago, and that I'm not confused about my feelings, I was never confused, that was just my way to cope with it.
Writing this makes my heart tear and I get all the feelings again. I barely can hold my tears.
I could say it out loud for the first time ever: "I love him; I'm in love with him, deeply. It's just that unlike the song, we're for sure, just two parallel lines"