A Letter to a Friend - #modernlovecontest

I've always felt that I have put more into my friendships then I've gotten out of them. It hasn't stopped me from being a supportive and good friend, but has often left me with self doubt and mild depression as my negative thoughts tend to wonder. I slowly began to drift away from them after high school but for a few years we still got together, at which point I had time to reflect on many things. I started being more honest with myself, even if I wasn't quite ready for my friends to hear it yet. So I started righting things down in a little green journal as the past and present reflected each other. These are a few excerpts from that notebook highlighting both the disappointment but joys in my relationship in friendship and love, however secret or known they may be.

Fun Fact: The cover of this book is the actual green journal I used to write my thoughts down in

This is just a short story done through the style of letters for the #modernlovecontest and is a more subtle take on the relations I've had with some of my friends over the years.

Like stated before these are only excerpts from certain writings, even though I don't use my real name here the names of my friends have been changed for privacy reasons except for the letter their name starts with. Likewise a few re wordings may have happened to help fit in the word count limit, so some past events I can not fully explain like I did in my actual notebook.