Abstracted

I've always been kinda distant, a loner a heart you could say. I've always thought that I was a little different than everyone. Just never thought that I was right. And I know what its like, to have friends but somehow they never seem to be around. To feel unwanted, ashamed, different. To watch everyone around you have all of these great special lives, and your just sitting on the sidelines. Even the people you thought were your friends, suddenly find ways to dis-clude you or only want to be with you when they need you or want something. Whenever you feel that you're not enough, that you don't belong and no one knows how it feels. To be on the outside, to know everything about everyone else, and not have a clue about yourself. Or maybe you do. You just can't explain it.