Rants and such

Tired. Stressed. Hungry. Aggravated. Angry. pathetic. Bitter. Childish. Cold. Disappointing. Disgusting. Hurt. Irritated. Anxious. Depressed. Dejected. Disturbed. Embarrassed. Gloomy. Hollow. Hopeless. melancholy. Sad. Serious. Sober Somber. Upset. I'm insecure about my thighs. My face. My legs. My eyes. My toes. My thoughts. my feelings. My eyebrows. My cheeks. Everything. I love food. I hate my body. I'm too fat to be pretty. I'm sorry that i'm ugly and fat. I try to be better. i want to be good enough for once in my life. I'm not pretty enough. Not skinny enough. Not food enough. not smart enough. not talented enough. Not popular enough. That's whats on my mind all day everyday. Honestly there's so many things in my life I worry about. Why am i not some musicians cute girlfriend who takes pictures backstage at gigs and hangs around the band and looks really fashionable and makes all his little fangirls jealous like wow I hate everything. This is such an issue. Why am i so stupid. Why am I so worthless. Why am i such a waste of space. I have nothing going for me and I know it. I have nothing in store for my future. I have nothing. I am nothing.