What to expect in this fic:
╰┈➤ • Guilty thoughts
• Triggering themes
• S3lf-h4rm thoughts
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Note: I will add more Trigger warnings as chapters (?) are added.
Ships: Hints of Saiouma (apologies Oumami, Irouma, and Kiibouma shippers ^^;), maybe Tengie; Tenko X Angie | Kiruharu; Maki X Kirumi.
Notes 2.0: My friend requested me to write more Kokichi angst, so you can thank them :)
Quick idea of the storyplot:
Kokichi is an actor, now not in the sense of; he's an actor for series, shows, and movies. He's an actor in the sense of he's always acting in front of people. Over-exaggerating, over-reacting, always loud, overly happy, and, what others would say, annoying. But, that's when he's in public, when he's in his mind space; his room. Curtains always covering the windows, sound proof room, messy room aswell. Clothes everywhere, papers and assignments on the desk, floors, and bedside table. Grape Pantas bottle on the floor, and other stuff. He's numb while in his mind space, no face expression, no acting, nothing. And always sitting with his back against the wall, and knees up to his chest. Feeling guilt for past actions, feeling guilt for actions he shouldn't have, and feeling guilt for horrible actions he shouldn't have done. But what can you do about the past?
N o t h i n g.
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Context: This is after all of them got released from the killing game simulation and got enrolled into the actual school in Tokyo that was the inspiration and base for the school that's referred to 'Hopes Peak'. Everything is sortive the same except for the new opinions of everyone after finding out what happened.
Notes 3.0: Again, this fic has a lot of Non-Canon writing, and heavily based on my headcanons. If you don't like that, it's alright to leave ^^; I
It's been about a year since the thirteen of them woke from the living hell that was the Killing Game. Ever since, they've been living together in a strange new world where their old memories are next to meaningless.
Kokichi still feels the effects of the game a year later; although, he only has himself to blame for not being able to get past his guilt. Still, he hopes to be able to, one day, feel like he has earned his place among the others and maybe even feel like he can belong.
Word Count: 91,675
[[ Cross-posted from my AO3 !! ]]
The cover art is mine as well!
Content warnings for language, minor injury (ch. 4), and minor suicidal thoughts (ch. 4 +5)!!
Also, this takes place after the events of V3, so (for anyone that hasn't played it yet for some reason) there will be spoilers for the game!
I will also mention also that Tsumugi and Korekiyo just... aren't in this and it's never explained or mentioned, sorry if you like those characters! (I just can't write those two postgame, haha)
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Edit (8-8-24): Realised that the chapters were numberless and that I never put the AO3 link here :P
https://archiveofourown.org/works/56079598