Bittersweet Memories
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Last published Tue, Jul 25, 2017
This is just a collection of my thoughts and feelings. I struggle with anxiety, depression, self-harming, eating disorders, and insomnia, and suicidal thoughts. If these things will be triggering for you, then please be cautious and careful. I Love you all. ❤️
update: I have recovered and healed from my mental illnesses. I am now a happy and healthy person. If you ever need encouragement I may continue to update this. Updates will no longer be depressing and deal with the above behaviors and mental illnesses; they will be encouraging and hopeful. You are a precious soul and I hope you one day realize that. (7/25/17)
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