"If someone asked"
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Complete Sun, Dec 18, 2022<5 mins
I started writing poems for myself and ask my papa for his opinion on them, he told me my poems should be shared because I feel the same way as many others. My youngest auntie (I was born before her) told me to record myself on ig (instagram) nd post the video.
I was thinking about sharing it but didn't want to in case people think I'm looking for attention which is not it at all but now I'm putting it out there to maybe be able to have others understand ppl like me; I'm not good at expressing my feeling because my family wasn't big on those things so now I hope someone can understand what I'm coming from or if there ARE ppl out there like me and doesn't know how to explain themselves to other, their parents, friends, etc or if they feel like they're alone. Just know I'm here and I understand and u are not alone.
This poem is about lil bits and pieces of my childhood and how I came to not caring about a lot of stuff and how I barely allow myself to feel my emotions.
Also no pictures in this poem or any the poems are mine only the poems are mines thank you.
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