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Cutting toward Calvary

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"Most girls my age are labeled by their cliques, their brands of clothing, or by the masks of their fake personalities they present to people. Me, well, my scars tell my story. My name is Alexa Jade Hill. I'm sixteen. I self harm. I want to die." 
Little does Alexa know, the road of destruction she seems to be traveling down will lead her from black sheep to a  beautiful lamb. Through trial and error, a test of strength, she will go through a near death experience that opens her eyes to the world around her. With the help of her childhood friend, her grandmother, and Heavenly forces she never understood, Alexa's life is about to change. Forever.All Rights Reserved

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