Lorem and Fiduciam

It was too much to handle, too much to feel but especially new. I wasn't ready, I wasn't prepared to face all these new and surprisingly bad and good things.
It's the first in my life that I feel like I am the main character. It's the first time in my life that I made decisions that I've always been the girl who helped others to live their moment, I was the friend that I've always wanted to have because this is what I was thought to do. ''Be the friend you want to have'' I heard, but did it actually help? I don't know... only time will actually tell me if all of this is worth it.
Do you know the calm before the storm? Do you know that scene when the butterfly peacefully in the woods before she got suddenly eaten by a lizard... Well, I'm the butterfly in the story.
Yes, yes pretty to see hard to catch they said but turned out I wasn't that hard to catch.
I've spent the majority of my childhood and the begging of my teenage years in my room surrounded by different kinds of books, living all types of experiences through those touchy words and my imagination, love, fantasy, mystery... and when I look at all this, what happened and what's happening in my life. I feel like I've been indirectly manifesting the typical Wattpad love story and when I've finally moved away to accomplish what I've always wanted to have, it happened... all at once, leaving me wondering what the heck I am supposed to do.
It all started 2 weeks before my birthday.