Sneaky Depression
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I've been bottling this up and honestly it's slowly killing me honestly I thought my life was perfect but I guess the grass is not always green in the other side.
what I'm basically saying is, I've been wearing a smile on my face.
-well,some refer to it as a smile.
In simple terms let me just say, sadness and pain have become apart of me .
and dimens Am dealing with.
I've been faking happiness and therefore, I'd like you walk through my thoughts.
THE JOURNEY OF MY LIFE.
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