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Hold On

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Reads 477
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Parts 25
Time 2h 23m

lavenderlilybeauty

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bad badboy college darkness depression fear findinghappiness friends friendship happiness happy hatred helpline love loveyourself mentaldisorder mentalhealth sad savealife scared self-bully

Just like other stereotypes, they seemed to be different from others' points of view. 

Two different people with tragic present, polar opposite where no one expects them to even associate, but when they do, under circumstances, understanding each other's importance in life, does the line of difference fades away? Or does it make it stronger?

What would it be like when a suicidal girl happens to associate with a rumored homicidal maniac?  Are they the only person who are dealing terribly with the present path life has thrown them into?

She's suicidal, or so what she thought.
He's homicidal or that's what they thought.
But as they get to know each other, are they really as they appear to be? Or do their differences make the thin line of similarity between them stronger?

Meet Amber Mckanzie. The first meet gives the idea of a quiet, shy, and introverted type girl who tries her best to stay out of trouble... But is she really?

Meet Edwin Wilder. A dangerous aura, quiet words, and lifeless eyes scare most of the people near him leaving him to deal with his scary attitude and pitiful solitude. After his best friend disappeared, he's known to be the murderer of his best friend along with one other person. But is he really?

And even though they can know the real meaning behind their façade, is it the only meaning?

This book is rated mature because of the mention of suicide and self-harm. 

Trigger Warning: Mental Health, harming,  depression.All Rights Reserved

bad badboy college darkness depression fear findinghappiness friends friendship happiness happy hatred helpline love loveyourself mentaldisorder mentalhealth sad savealife scared self-bully

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