She never actually thought of how she felt, really. It was more like Julia lived to please her mother, and everyone else around her, then herself.
Until, one day, she realized something-- she wasn't really happy. Her life: it revolved around what people thought, what they would say, and how they felt. She wasn't happy; not at all. She had nothing to really live for--except God--but would he really care if she left?
She thought about it, thought about it some more, and came to the conclusion that the world had nothing to give her that would make her happy.Peace, happiness...love. It was so, so hard to find.
Maybe she's wrong. Maybe she should go out and find her way. Live a little. When she pondered this, it made her feel something she never thought she'd feel again.
Hope.
*TRIGGER WARNING: DEALS WITH DEPRESSION, SELF HARM AND SUICIDE*
Amber is sixteen years old and to sugarcoat it... She hasn't had the best upbringing.
She would love a different life, one where she can see her mother again and not be stuck with her abusive father. A life where she doesn't get taunted and hit and torn apart by everyone who she has ever seen. But she would never swap, she doesn't want anyone to endure the pain she's gone through.
So instead, she tries to get rid of it... Again.
But much to her disbelief, she is saved by the people she would least expect. She learns secrets about them that no one else knows. She feels included. Cared for. And dare I say it... She felt loved.
For once in her life, she felt truly happy to be alive.
But just when Amber felt safe, her life was flipped upside down and her past came back to haunt her just when she least expected it...
(Sorry, I suck at descriptions, don't let it put you off)
Ranking:
#64 in Awareness
#15 in Mental Health Awareness
#73 in saddness