Blogger.
- Reads 252
- Votes 16
- Parts 14
Ongoing57m
Last published Wed, Jan 7, 2015
I am Phil Lester.
And this is my blog.
Clearly, this is my first post.
So let me tell you some things about myself:
I am broken hearted.
And alone.
I am crying.
I’m crying a lot.
I am also drunk.
Oh, I’m very drunk.
All Rights Reserved
Join the largest storytelling communityGet personalized story recommendations, save your favourites to your library, and comment and vote to grow your community.
You may also like
Empty Classrooms. Phan AU
I have a girlfriend. Her name is Kayla and she's so sweet and pretty... but there's one problem. I'm in love with someone else: my best friend, Phil Lester. I didn't mean to cheat, I swear. I was just confused with my identity and I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I ended up hurting her feelings even more by cheating. I made a mistake and I'm the worst person on the planet, I know. This is what happened. Note: In no way am I trying to romanticise cheating. There are no excuses for cheating so please don't do that.Complete
Outcast ✧ Phan
Dan Howell has telekinesis - a power just like out of a comic book. Yet instead of protecting the universe as a brave superhero, he hides. He hides his power and himself, fearing nothing more than getting attached to somebody and dragging them down. Of course, Phil Lester, the new kid in school, just had to come waltzing in, destroying his entire view on nearly everything in the worst (and best) ways possible. Phil's like a drug, and boy, is Dan addicted. Warning: contains self harm, depression, boyxboy, references towards abuse, and other possible triggers or content you may not be comfortable with. you can message me in private for the specifics if you feel you need it and remember to stay safe. (Top: #89 in Fanfiction, #1 in Phan!)Complete
Smile, Dan
DISCLAIMER: This story is mature because it will have some self harm in it. It will also have some swearing due to that's how Dan actually talks. This is not about Phan being real. I'm sorry to disappoint you. Now onto what it is really about: Dan Howell is becoming more and more depressed. His family, his community, not even his best friend, Phil Lester, can help him. He believes he's a lost cause, and he's a mistake. He tries to hide it best he can, but some nights, it's just too much. During this, he's lost his will to smile. He'll fake smiles for videos and pictures, but he's lost a reason to genuinely smile.Complete
Weird Feelings (Phan)
plz don't read this it's dumb and I'm embarrassed. (2016) - Dan and Phil begin to develop feelings toward eachother but not sure how to explain it. Is it a crush? Or more? And what happens when they're both called to do a segment together for a youtube convention? Will they act fine or will they remain friends? WARNING. TRIGGERS OF SUICIDE, AND SELF HARM. written October 2012. // this was my first fic and i am aware that there are a lot of mistakes (lowercase intended)Complete
My Blood, Your Bones - Phan
Young Dan Howell, who lives with his alcoholic father, lost his mother to cancer less than a year ago, and is killing himself. Phil Lester, a boy picked on for his weight, lives alone from the rest of the world in a rehab center while trying to recover from severe anorexia. When a concerned teacher suggests Dan seek help, the two lonely worlds collide. Maybe all they need for help is each other. (Rating: Mature! Very angsty! Read at your own risk! Triggers: self harm, eating disorder, suicide. A little swearing. A little smutty, a little fluffy)Complete
I'm trying o.k?
Dan is highly depressed and falls for Phil, his best friend who tries to help him out of his self destructive path. Trigger warning -mention of self harm, death, eating disorders, alcoholism. Some personal views about these issues are expressed so I'm sorry if you don't agree with them but hey that's why I said "personal".Complete
Midnight || Phan {Complete}
Daniel Howell and Phil Lester have gone through a lot together. ***TRIGGER WARNING- SELF HARM / SUICIDE ATTEMPTS / DEPRESSION / HOMOSEXUALITY /SAD/ANGST***Complete
The Lion and the Llama (Phanfiction)
*TRIGGER WARNING* Dan and Phil start having feelings for each other, but after one of Dan's nightmares causing him wanting Phil to sleep with him the rest of the night, things start spiraling out of control. (Phan, self harm, swearing etc etc etc) Ok, I'm terrible at descriptions, but if you wanna know what actually happens read on :))) -A xxComplete
I have a girlfriend. Her name is Kayla and she's so sweet and pretty... but there's one problem. I'm in love with someone else: my best friend, Phil Lester. I didn't mean to cheat, I swear. I was just confused with my identity and I didn't want to hurt her feelings. I ended up hurting her feelings even more by cheating. I made a mistake and I'm the worst person on the planet, I know. This is what happened. Note: In no way am I trying to romanticise cheating. There are no excuses for cheating so please don't do that.
More detailsContent Guidelines