Upside down

I learned how to play the game by watching my brother fail.

There is a saying my mom used to use all the time when she talked about her kids. The oldest makes the mistakes, the second child learns from them, the middle child breaks them, and the youngest has his own rules.

But, what does it mean when I don't wanna play the game anymore? When I would much rather by like the oldest rather then the second?

When I say screw it, I don't wanna be perfect anymore.