Happy Like Everyone Else in This World
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Ongoing5m
Last published Thu, Jan 7, 2016
I sit, feeling as if I am being slowly swallowed by darkness. the faces and sounds are now blurred and muffled and I think..... Why? Why me? Is there something different about me that I had to go through this- hell? Why cant I just be happy like every one else in the world? I finally have something wonderful walk into my life and now, its gone. My one true love my everything gone forever. I never even got to say goodbye. The one who helped me through all my ups and downs, the one who no matter how hard life was or how much I just wanted to curl in to a ball and hide forever always manajed to put a simile on my face. GONE-and its all my fault.
If only I would've payed more attention.....
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