Expression/Vent(Happy And Sad)

I have a hard time expressing myself and talking about my emotions n wht I'm going through so hopefully this will help me, Tw possibly, cussing caps mentions of violence descriptions of harsh subjects talk of sxul. aslt. abuse e.d and O.d ing, and this is also sorta to help my relationship with my s/o, so to make this easyer for them to look through, the chapter names will be dates they were written and main subjects