the badboy and his girl

I never fully realized what it meant to hurt , to truly hurt. until i wanted you to such a great extent only to have no other choice but to convince my self i didn't but i couldn't, i tried hard to think let's start over, shall we? I never understood why everyone cried when they got they're heartbroken. Until it was me laying on my bed watching romance movies and eating ice cream which by the way did not make me feel anymore better. Until I found myself calling you and leaving you a voice mail with my voice cracking and my face drenched in what seemed like a trillion tears. Until it was me in my shower crying so hard I could barely breath. Until it was me in my bed late at night, listening to sad music and crying so hard but so low so that no one could hear me sob. I never understood the term heartbreak. But now I know why the call it heartbreak. Because that's what it feels like, it feels like your hearts being broken into many pieces. When you're so hurt , you get this pain. Right where you heart is. As if your heart is literally being torn into pieces. And let me tell you, it hurts. It hurts so freaking bad. I never understood why everyone said it felt like there was apart of them missing after going through a loss. Until it was me. It literally feels like a part of you has been ripped from you. You and i used to be so perfect together but just know that i ll make you hurt just as you've done to me.

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