Heartache

I just want to feel this fate.
To be happy and loving.
To show that I'm not bluffing.
To be something instead of nothing.
To know what lust is.
To know what trust is.
For somebody to have my side.
So many times I have cried.
They said life should be hell of a ride. Your feelings change every time a tide hits the shore.
They'll hurt your heart, even rip out the core.
It's frantic that in life you can be faithful. Most people aren't even grateful. Nobody cares for one of another, they're all just really hateful.
I can't handle no more, this pain is more than a plate full.
Although, I'm thankful for my creator, my family and my friends. For every bad, there's a ton of good.
I can't help myself even if I could.
I want to end things but I don't think I should.
Sounds like I'm giving up, but I'm hurting and I been hanging on for too long, it's difficult.
I can't hang on like people think I can. Don't get me wrong,I'm not weak.
I'm just tired of being strong.
-Callista Paul